O COOL ! I FINALLY REALIZED I AM TOTALLY USELESS IN THIS MAN ! this is really the last time !

I JUST DELETED MY DOTA ! and all the games ! can you believe it? omg... i just treat it as ACCIDENTALLY uninstall lor then now... can concentrate on my O although my hand felt itchy of playing dota and angry! but.. no choice this is the simple condition i should do now.. left 1 more thing in my mind i don't know how to say but i know the answer it will definitely hurt me but this starts to bother me i hate this i love this too should i? should i not? i had already plan my study timetable in this week i shall follow it and not TAKL ONLY ! haha.. kk actually thought can go and watch movie with you thats why planning to go back today or else yesterday night go back liao lor haha... anyway i going back to make a new spec? hope can find a suitable one=) k gtg le HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO QIWEI ! fearless... sign off yao

erm... yesterday was thinking to strike the rest of my subject to an A but today~ on the way helping mdm lim to carry things go to our class she is trying to advice me not to over estimate yourself as all of you know my result is aint that good but i always say that i want A1 or 2 which sounds impossible haizx... she said having an high hope is good for me but, we must know where we stand is not good that always place yourself at the highest position haizx... she said as i give up my MT with a B3 i should and i know need to buck up for others then i tell her i must strike all for an 1 or 2 but she said this is my "bad" things she said i must make a realistic goal which mean all b3 is really really good for me le 1 or 2 is a bonus? but i gave a thought to it if my english get a pass like C6? then chem, phy, ss all B3 and of course... I must get my A and E maths A1 which means, is about 17 for the aggregate and get a good course stay in poly but i want TO GO JC because i want to get into uni ! if go poly must reach top 5% it sound... HAIZX... although 17 can also enter like YJC? but... haizx! haizx... HAIZX !! may be? i should heed her advice.. to get into poly if i continue make all those UNREALISTIC goal i may not even enter to POLY! so......................... ya... no more jc? or no more poly choose 1...... Grrrr.... nvmm i really really really really need ALOT OF BUCK UP ! for my prelim exp SS and CHEM 1 more weeks for this 2sub ALL THE BEST and GOOD LUCK for my CHALLENGE ! B3 !

achieving what i desire isnt a matter to worry well... i am not retaking my MT O LEVEL ~ haizx... B3 actually is really really not enough for me... exp is my Chinese ~ but, after heeding some advices, since that i know that my standard is deproving and if i gonna score an 1 in mother tongue, i really will put in alot of effort to achieve. HOWEVER, if i am going to put in the EFFORT IN MT ! what about the rest of my subject? am i going just to score an 1 and all the rest deprove by 1 grade.. is aint worth it man! since i know that is very difficult for me to take it.. i must else give up my chinese ( although i felt very very sad) and put in MORE MORE MORE MORE effort in the others. Another reasons is because... even i memorize all the 成语, i may not apply all in my compo? i rather put that effort in the chemistry physics geography and social studies memorizing all the FACT ! is better... haha... action speaks louder than words ! so .. i shan't talk anymore... i will do it... nono, i MUST do it AND ! EXP FOR MY SOCIAL STUDIES ! ......... MR NAIR !! i shall not " THROW" badminton members' face ! i will PROVE YOU WRONG !! GRRRR ~~~~ all 4s2 students know what i am talking ... lol.. kk la.. think wont write so much liao i really need to buck up since i am not 读书的料. anyway, achieving what i desire isnt a matter to worry, the effort must be put in though ! this mean alot ! haha.. ><

Spelt at 4am -.- wake up at 930am …

Known that my cousin went to 838 to participate an art competition

By Orhich Park Secondary School and Naval base Sec ?

Haha… is a art exhibition ba..

Yo… saw Pitchaya and her cousin, then of course

Mdm loy

Mskoh

MsSoh and…….

MAJOR TAN !

Lol…

Yaya.. pitchaya said still at ss notes page 4

Then I like… wa… got ppl same as me=)

Must start memorizing now liao…

Or else no time !

Today and tomorrow

2 days left

jiayou !

jiayou to all 4s2 students also

okok…

2 more weeks

prelim coming

no more dota=(

no more movie=(

no more basketball=(

no more sleeping=(

seriously must concentrate liao la

I don’t want to waste the 4 years studying in Sg

If you ask me,

Is better to study here or Malaysia?

What is the difference?

I felt that the educational system in Singapore is higher than Malaysia

The things the quite difference is…

During class

When teacher is teaching

Students are not allowed to walk around even is just throwing rubbish

And here in Singapore

Sometimes I felt that the teachers do not concern so much about the movement in the class

Like you want to walk there walk here also can de

Quite weird lor-.-

And!

Here like don’t need to knock the door to come in one…

Yaya…. This is the difference that I don’t really like xD

~chao !

cool ! today was fun ! 1st of all advanced happy birthday to zhihao ! went to Orchard to buy present xD ... with seet and chungkit.. lol... then come back meet farhan and ian to go for zhihao party at sembawang park... quite fun... but.. we supposed mrtang mspaul msfoo mslee will come... but in the end ! guess what ! all PANG SEH =x everyone started to kee siao liao.... 1st we have marshmallow war ! then follow by ice war ! omg... marshmallow war was damm fun man.. =x huiling started it 1st i guess ! hahaha... jerren poor thing lol.. kena his left eye there swollen... but don't know who hit one.. then we go buy alcohol ! =x seet damm sian ... quite a few share the beer but didn't share the money... is about $20 + lor... haizx... anyway... after that... seet and i went to buy 2 can of heineken ... anyway.. quite fun.=) here are the pictures...still have more but lazy to update=) those who want ask from me ba zhihao : JERREN... take this for me.. jerrren : FIRE ! Seet: piang eh... =( me and jerren this one go and guess yourself=) yaya... anyway... happy birthday to leekoon ! xD yaya... tts all... i go study liao ... bye !

sorry for not updating for such a long time=) although there is a lot of things happened to me, i didn't write these out at here. may be i am busy? ( but i am not), may be i am lazy? may be i think is useless posting it out?last time when i was sad, i will try to find someone to talk to, but now, since that day i ask yingshi what she will do when she felt sad, she said she will keep inside her heart, so from that day... but now.... nvm haizx, things didn't go so well actually, since sec1 when studying at orchid park secondary school, until now, i still faced alot of problems, friends, family studies, relationship... don't know la.. i thought love comes in naturally, when you really like that person, is really cannot express in word. Someone say this and this match. who and who not match? does it really matter? so what if match? so what if not? loves come naturally through your heart... not mouth ! i believed you truly like the person, no matter how much effort you put in, the most important thing is wish the person to be happy rihgt? hope that he could take care of her. take care.. sound so far... but what? actually just hope that she wont get hurt ... most of my friends are younger than me, but everyone also treat me like same age or younger? Actually i don't really mind, i just wish that i could mix with them, but guess what? sometimes i just felt that i am very left out... is it because misunderstanding of age-gap? or what? i don't mind what you all treat me as, cause i am really not ... family problem, since i came to Singapore to study, the connection and relationship with my parents are getting lesser and lesser. They are getting less and less understand about me. The things i hate most is they always tried to use "sarcastic word" to make me do somethings ! which this didn't happened when i study in MALAYSIA ! moreover, at malaysia i still managed to find some friend who knows about me, care about me. my parents always misunderstand the message i try to send to them and turn another way to scold me... studies... the most important things. English, all of my friends know, my english is damm damm damm poor, i don't deny that, but sometimes really hurt when someone tried to learn more and you all down there laughing and teasing at me. since sec1 , i have decided to score well in my english and have a fluent conversation in English. why why why? and now, i am already sec4, O level is coming, and my english still like sh*t. I wanted to go JC and the least is a pass in english isn't it? 2 more months. teachers also look down on the students, i shall not mention their name. Chemistry... omg, this is another subject which i hardly get a pass since beginning of sec 3, and now sec4 ! O LEVEL IS COMING ! the last test i only got 18/40, WTF LA... study also failed... never study also fail... this kind of standard wishing to go to a JC ! other friends down there laugh at me also LAI BU JI ! sorry Mr Ramesh? ....................................................................speechless............................................................ i still remember clearly what my father ask me through the phone when i get back my mind year result... " diyao, is it possible for you to retake the o level next year, ask principal whether you are allow to study sec4 again and retake if cannot make it" when you all saw this, i am not lying , may be you will down there laughing, pity me or what i I DONT CARE ! i just know my dad is not UNDERSTAND ME anymore ! this is what i mean all sort of "sarcastic" , but did he know that i am really very hurt? haizx.. i shall not carry on, i have really really really tired of all kind of things that had happen to me, really tired... shouldn't me be studying now? you may ask me this question and ask me to stop about what happen to the past... i shall stop here. may be you will think i am a emo person, but i just with to thank those who read this post... just want to be happy everyday as well as you to be happy........... if i at malaysia... since i at singapore........... HAIZX!!!! why some girls like that type of guy? o.o loving someone can make you do all sort things... including changing yourself into that type?